“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?” – Kahlil Gibran

Well, I am keeping this short tonight because 1) I am exhausted; and 2) the Ducks are playing.  

That being said, the results are better than anticipated, but like Sam keeps repeating, they really do not change anything.  The liver is fine, the progression in the lungs is slower; however, there are a few new "hot spots" with one in the T10 vertebrae and 2 new spots in his pelvis.  The doctor told him the crazy things Sam is experiencing are side effects from the chemo and typical symptoms of lung cancer (no one has ever really told him that before that I am aware of.)  

When I asked if he felt some relief, he replied with a "not really" and then went on to explain, as I noted above, it does not really change anything.  No, it certainly does not, but it does give hope to live a bit longer.  This down mood really needs to disappear.  

Last May before the chemo began, we decided to try to go to Hawaii in January.  Those plans went by the wayside during the chemo but tonight he said he would like to try and go.  So, it is back on the calendar but we will not make any plans until after the first of the year.

Sam sees the doctor again in a few weeks, then is not scheduled to go back for another month  or so after that for a CT scan on his lungs and abdomen.  

There you have it.  All is "good" for now, but as you all know, in the cancer world, things can change on a dime.

q'ua