Sam received his test results today and I am only partially aware of them as once again, I did not get invited to the doctor's appointment (it is that control issue thing many terminally ill patients experience.) There is fluid in the left lung. This news caught me totally by surprise. Interesting thing is, that is about all Sam shared with me. Tomorrow I am expecting a copy of the report in the mail, so hopefully I will find out more. Then again, maybe I do not want to.
Tonight Sam, in passing, also said he might have a stress fracture in his left pelvis/hip/femur area. The challenge with this is there has been no X-ray or MRI done, it is just the level of pain he is experiencing in that area each time he moves. If he keeps complaining of the pain, I am going to insist we go back to the ER.
Sam is walking with a cane for now as is putting forth such a great effort to keep on going.
As for me, I am having a difficult time right now. I so desperately want wish he was going to be ok. As my mother says, I'm just having a moment, I'll be ok in a few minutes.
q'ua
