It's exhilarating to be alive in a time of awakening consciousness; it can also be confusing, disorienting, and painful. Adrienne Rich

Yep, that is me, exhilarated to be alive, yet I just had a confusing, disorienting and painful awakening moment. As Sam walks across the room, I suddenly realize he is losing weight...and it is noticeable. It is common for cancer patients on chemo to lose weight, but if you lose too much, the treatment stops.  What is the definition of "too much" and who determines it?  Regardless, I need to somehow make sure he gets enough calories daily. But I digress, because I simply wanted to tell you the realization made me very sad.  No matter what is said or done, the cancer continues to progress.  I would give absolutely anything to have a healthy husband, father, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends.  Cancer is a terrible disease and it affects not only the patients themselves but every single person around him or her.

Sam and Lance Mackey, 4 time Iditarod winner and cancer survivor
August 2011

Thank goodness tomorrow is another day, just ask Lance Mackey!

Ciao!